I really do think letting go of people is one of the hardest things to do! I’ve been through a lot of shit, but saying goodbye to someone, sorry, choosing to say goodbye to someone fucking sucks. Yes, I am completely aware that I’ve dicussed this topic before, but it’s just so pressing and relevant to my life that I feel the need to bring it up again.
Every time, I let go of someone it makes me realize the amount of strength neccesary to recognize that something isn’t for you and walking away. Nontheless we don’t just walk away from bad situation, sometimes we walk away from good people. The question that arises is why? Why walk away from good people? I read something today that reasonated with me.
Sometimes love doesnt align with our values.
I read this and it was kinda like an aha moment. I’ve been walking away from friendships and relationships with people, not because I don’t think they are fucking awesome, but rather because some of the things they are doing/how the are acting does not resonate with my values. Others might not understand, or better yet, others look at me like I’m crazy. However, it’s necessary for me.
If something goes against my belief system and my values, then it doesn’t matter how much I love you. The issue is not whether I love you or not, its whether I can accept what you’re doing even though it goes against my values.
My friend told me the other day that I’m very principled. I LOVE the word principled, and I LOVE that she associates that word with me.
Principled is defined as acting in accordance with morality and showing recognition of right and wrong.
I believe what I believe. I think what I think. I feel what I feel.
It is harder from me to accept something that I feel in my heart is wrong, then it is to walk away from someone I love because I simply can’t live with that type of turmoil in my heart.
At the end of the day, you have to do whats best for you. Not everyone will undertsand, and its not for everyone to understand. As long as its right in your heart, choose you.
Yesterday, I had an impromptu conversation with my mentor at work. I’ve been feeling really burnt out, and unable to find a balance between my personal and professional life – whatelse is new. While I was speaking to him, he said something that really stuck:
You’re doing too much.
I’ve always been ambitious because I always strive for better. I’m grateful for what I have, but I am always challenging myself to be better, to do better, to grow.
In spite of my ambition, he did a really really good job at breaking things down for me and putting things into perspective. He was absolutely right, there is A LOT going on in my life:
There are a few other things happening, but you folks get the gist. He was right. At this point in time, I am doing a lot, maybe even too much. BUT, that doesn’t mean something has to give just yet.
Once he was breaking everything down for me, I realized what I needed – a schedule/plan. It’s so easy to push things off until a later date. It’s so easy to put a figurative pin-in-it and forget about it. It’s easy to say you’ll “do it later” especially when later never comes.
I’m not at the point where I want to dial things back, but I do need to slow down and reevaluate my life and figure out my next steps. I need a plan, and SMART goals, and fucking time management. I need to take control over my life, and stop letting myself get eaten by this day to day hustle.
I love choices and options. My friends hear me say it all the time – why should I have to choose? Nevertheless, I’m starting to realize that there is power in choosing. There is power in deciding what’s valuable, and deciding what you put your energy towards.
I’m not ready to slow down YET because my job brings me joy and happiness; my blogs feed my passion; my courses help me grow; meditation and energy healing feed my soul; and TV, yes, watching that much TV makes me genuinely happy. The things I’m choosing to put my energy towards is making me happy. It’s feeding my spirit and it’s showing me I’m on the right path.
It’s a lot, I won’t lie. It’s overwhelming at times, but that’s why I’m so grateful for this conversation because it came at the perfect time. It reminded me that it’s okay to slow down, to amend your dreams, to take time for yourself throughout the day.
I definitely need to take a breather, but what I need more is to be me – the me-est of them all.
I will create a schedule. I will find time for my passions without feeling overwhelmed. More importantly, I will be me.
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Today, I decided I was going to court myself. I packed some snacks and books. I downloaded some espisodes of The Ozark, it’s finally back. Also, I brought me a blanket. Then, I went to a parkette and chilled.
Afterwards, I took myself out to dinner and then brought myself home. The only thing I’ve noticed when I court myelf are all of the looks I get. Some people get so uncomforatble when you’re living in the truth.
I’ve decided to become my own best friend because lately people have been bothering my spirit. I feel like I spent so much of my life trying to live up to standards that were placed upon me. However, I’m learning that this is my life. This is my journey and I have to follow whatever path I feel l am meant to take. It might be unorthodoxed but it’s what I feel like I need to do. Affirmations. Intentions. Energy. Crystals. Meditation. Mindfulness. Gratefulness. Have been words in my vocabulary and it feels right to me. You might hear me and think I’m crazy, but I know in my heart I’m on the right path.
We all have such complicated relationships with money. We’re told to save it for a rainy day. We’re told to spend it cause, well, you know – YOLO. We’re told that people who have it are selfish greedy little pricks. We’re told that the people who don’t have it are humble beings.
I believe right therein lies the problem = WE ARE TOLD! We’re told by our parents, society, and through media representation about how money is the root of all evil. We’re told that the rich only want to benefit themselves and eat cake. We listen to everyone’s baggage and experiences, instead of developing our own relationship with money. We’re taught to hate it, while we need it.
If we were really – and I mean REALLY – honest with ourselves, THEN we would realize we like money not because it’s money, but because of the things it enables us to do. We like money because we get to be financially free, travel, take care of the family, pursue that passion of yours, etc… It enables us to live our best life. Whatever that life looks like is up to you.
I would really encourage you to think about your feeling surrounding money, and then challenge them. Realize that money isn’t the issue, but rather the people. Realize that a good person can have A LOT of money, and still be humble and pure. This is because it’s not about the amount of money a person has – it’s about their intentions and the energy that surrounds their money.
Say this affirmation with me:
“I am deserving of abundance in my life.”
You are a part of a Universe that is infinite and abundant – think of the galaxy or the depth of the ocean or the fact that if we all died the Earth would literally demolish EVERYTHING we have built. There is so much about this world that we don’t understand, and that’s fine with me. If you ask me, this is what makes the world sooooo amazing.
I am willing to believe that I am infinite and abundant, just like the Universe, just like money.
You are enough. You are unique. There is only one you, be the youest of them all.
P.S – Rose Quartz is my go-to stone when I’m feeling a little down on myself.